(I apologise if there are grammar errors or what not in this – I am being guided to just post this as it is and not edit it – Namaste)
I just watched this amazing amaaaazing 90 minute training video by Gabby Bernstein.
I had never heard of her.
It was actually a beautiful soul, whom I met about 3 years ago, who shared the video on a group that we both belong to who led me to it.
In the first 10 mins of the video, I was crying.
In the next 10 minutes, I was thinking of all the people I know that I want to share this with.
The authenticity and purity of her message was what had my entire attention!
One of the clear messages that came through during this 90 mins was for me to go back to basics – my basics is blogging and writing ….and the extra message was to share…share with authenticity!
I took hold of this message to the shower and – as usual, as it always does – the reflections and realisations just came pouring in.
Usually I would hold on to these and think I will write it later and then NEVER do!
This time I listened…got out of the shower, quickly dried myself and ran to the computer and started typing all this – whilst it’s all completely fresh and purely in my authenticity of wanting to share.
Gabby talked a lot about Marianne Williamson being one of her teachers – and as much as she has been mine too…my greatest teacher was actually Debbie Ford.
I loved her for her rawness and authenticity.
Then, when I found out she had cancer and died – something in me began to resent her for not getting through her illness.
I started to listen to her Courage audio book and found myself judging her!
For being real!
The thing that I most admired her for, now became my judgement.
Because I really didn’t allow her to be real as she really was being in my world, I only allowed some of it to come through..only what I could handle!
Now that I am thinking about it…as I type this…I am asking myself…
The answer is now only too obvious….
It’s what I have allowed to rule my life … in every aspect.
And then I was diminishing the courage of this amazing soul …
Only because I was fearful of her courage!
That’s what it is…
Unconsciously, I did not want to get to where she got to…
I admired her for it…
But I wasn’t prepared to be courageous
In every way
Warts and all
Not only the good bits!
This has been a massive learning for me just in the past year –
I keep wanting to attract it
But I won’t allow myself to be IT
It’s amazing how we see only what we want to see.
Debbie, for me, was the teacher of AUTHENTICITY….
Through my realisations, I saw that we all allow our fears to justify and filter what we want to see and hear!
Much like Jesus came on this earth to teach us who we truly are,
But what most don’t want to accept is that he was here as a human being…just like all of us!
Showing us that we have a choice on how to lead our lives
That does NOT mean that you will not experience the dark
Believing that Jesus did not experience the dark….even within himself and us all allowing him to only be held on a pedestal is partly what ended up created such hatred and war.
What a realisation.
And being like everyone else is not MY answer
Blending in with the crowd is not where I am supposed to be
I AM TO SHINE MY LIGHT IN THIS WORLD!
What a message that just needed to come out and be shared through this story of this experience today.
The message that is clear to me and has been delivered to me…day after day for the last 4 weeks:
BE MY OWN GUINEA PIG (using my own practices/beliefs) AND MY AUTHENTICITY WILL RISE EVERYDAY WITH THE KEY INGREDIENT OF PATIENCE!
Thank you Gabby for your message today and another beautiful messenger Rachael Jayne Groover who has also helped bring me to my authentic space
I am feeling FREE just being able to express this from my heart to yours.