I can’t believe that it has been 6 days since my last entry here. How time flies!
Since my last entry, I had been busy with kids on the holidays, going to my 20 year High school reunion and getting back into the swing of school routine!!
So let’s catch up!
Since last Friday, apart from dinner time – the raw plan was all still on. When did it go haywire? On Saturday night, when I allowed myself to have the night off from Operation Raw Pas from the Reunion, where we had barbecue for dinner and I had a few wines! I enjoyed a big salad at the reunion, along with a veggie burger and a couple of skewers of mini shrimps! Along with the drinking, thinking about my diet was out the door. Don’t get me wrong, I had fun and enjoyed the food that I ate..but at the same time, I did feel like I was letting myself down in some ways! It’s crazy. I see now where it all went wrong. My focus from this being a spiritual experience/adventure, became one of ego. Soon as that happens, emotional eating takes over!
In saying that, I am learning that a balance of my spirit & ego is necessary! I can’t have one without the other. Beating myself up over this is what has sent me in a whirlwind of confusion and a sense of identity loss this week. Resulting in me not being able to get back on track. So all there is left to do is to surrender! I am staying in control of what I can, when I can – and watching, evaluating my behaviours. Still having control of my workouts and most of what I am allowing in my body. I have to remember that this is all part of the journey and that it’s not just the end result that is my success. It’s also recognising the other aspects of myself.
I was quite happy with how I felt and looked for the reunion night though…all the hard work has been paying off and is showing, just that I think I need to relieve myself of some of the immense pressure that I have been unconsciously and consciously placing on myself. Pictured here —>
I did have to figure out what the heck to wear for that night, so I ended up trying on a few of my clothes and was pleasantly surprised with how easily they all fit now! Love it!
So I am getting completely distracted by other things whilst I am writing this blog, really need to go have a shower before my daughter wakes up! So I am going to have to cut this shorter than how I had planned it in my head!
At this point in time, even though the time is still ticking for my 42 days of Operation Raw Pas, I am giving myself the week off this week, just from being hard core Raw! allowing myself to eat a hot meal, a sweet meal or dairy, if that’s what I desire. Otherwise, my plan is to be as raw as possible throughout the day, but not restricting myself…just for this week. I also have to allow for my 16 years wedding anniversary weekend away with hubby this weekend, where we can enjoy a nice dinner with wine and breakfast together… And although, I am allowing myself this freedom, I still find that my choices are heading more towards being raw, even the way that I prepare cooked meals is changing. So I feel that this experience/experiment is not all in vain. It’s definitely helping to bring many minor changes, that I think I will adopt in my lifestyle for life! Been loving starting back on the C25K for the last 3 days, and a much deserved 70mins of yoga/pilates today!
I hope to share more, in time – otherwise, I will have small updates on twitter daily!
Leaving with this as food for thought: