It has been a long time since I have blogged.
Why is that?
Well life has been busy, especially preparing for my son’s confirmation, which was last Sunday. But now that’s all over, I can get back to business. I keep having blogs written in my head but not always having the time and sometimes not the energy to actually sit down and write it!
Anyway, enough about that..this blog is because needing to get some things off my chest. A few frustrations I guess. I did start this blog as a way to be able to share all the good and bad..so this is one of the down/negative days.
Yesterday, I came across this article/blog on one of my friend’s Facebook pages:
Now before I go on, I think it would be wise for you to read the blog first so you understand where I am coming from….
Since I began this journey…well, it may seem like it was only a few short weeks ago, but this is really something that I have been striving to do all my life. But I was always ruled and believed what the media/advertising companies were selling to me and ended up with low-fat products, or diet products which at the time, I really believed was the best thing for me. Now when you do some research and the way that things are advertised, this is no longer the way to go!
I knew that there had to be a better way and a few years ago, attempted to implement this more in our lives by buying more organic fruits and vegetables but what I was still remaining ignorant about, is the amount of packaged and boxed products that I was still filling my pantry with. And I will admit, it did make my life easier to buy these products, especially when I was working full time. Since I’ve had my daughter 21 months ago, my whole outlook on health changed. I am not saying that it’s not something that has always been around, cause clearly it has and I did witness many people in my family and friends taking the road of sacrifice with their health choices. Basically, I just wanted the easier way and hoped that the choices that I was making was enough to keep us healthy.
As I mentioned, after having my daughter…things changed so much in me. I don’t know if it was having a girl that maybe awakened more of my feminine spirit and drive. Just even the sacrifices that I made to lose the immense amount of weight was massive. Since then, I have felt such power and courage inside of me. Like finding a part of myself that was buried and is now alive again. I am not saying that I didn’t know that a lot of the things that I was eating or drinking were not good for me…I simply didn’t want to apply the better options or choices. I knew Coke was not good for me, yet I still chose to drink it because it kept me somewhat alive and awake, the same with caffeine, chocolate, cakes, etc…
One of the main things that I realised in the last few weeks was that I had a massive addiction to chewing gum. The reason I chose to chew gum was to stop me from eating food and also keep my breath fresh. Again, I knew the damage aspartame could have on me and how it has affected other people who have excessively consumed it. I guess, looking back on it now, I was being ignorant without knowing it and clearly making the choice to be caught up in the matrix(basically being controlled by the likes of the media/advertisers/politics). It felt good to me at the time and wanted to prolong it as much as possible. Much like many things that I still make these kind of choices with at this point in time, I guess in time, it will be as clear as what this is and the lesson will be learnt. Looking back now, I see where the migraines/headaches stemmed from that I have suffered from for 2 years and ended up on very strong pain medication for – which I absolutely hated and ended up stopping myself when I was going through crazy side effects from the tablets – mainly nightmares and feeling like I was not in this world!
Where am I going with this? Not sure if it’s making any sense to be honest, I am just typing as things come to mind as I feel I have so much to say and my mind is very cluttered at the moment.
Back to the present moment, as to the reason why I am making reference to this blog/article above. After reading this, I felt quite depressed and discouraged. I have adapted many changes in our health lifestyle that my family have been so amazing and completely embraced because they know that I am only wanting the very best for us all. Pantry food items have been cut down by at least 90%. The things that I still do buy, I read labels or buy organic wherever possible as well as ensure that they are preservative free. Sometimes it’s not complete avoidable but I do my best – even when I am planning to have people over, I make the choices that I would make for us, for them too – but still allowing some of their choices because I really can’t control what their choices are.
For example, yesterday’s market day saw me with a small amount of funds to spend as there was a bit of overspending for the confirmation on Sunday. Out of $105, I spent $34 on fruits & vegies, $28 on poultry products and $38 @ Aldi(and $14 of that was on nappies)….So I thought I did quite well. Considering the ratio of fresh products being greater than that of pantry items(which includes milk). I was talking to my husband about it last night and I am realising it now as I am writing this that I am doing enough FOR NOW…it’s only the beginning. I know that we still have a long way to go, this is only the beginning of the journey. And there will always be circumstances like this to make me doubt what I am doing and feel like just going back to the old ways. But it’s like I was saying to hubby last night…perseverance and consistency is what is needed right now with the changes that we are implementing and slowly, as those changes are more concrete and complete habit, other things that can still be changed can start to be implemented to. Otherwise, it’s way too overwhelming.
After reading that article, I wanted to just crawl up in a corner and hide. but this morning I realised that the article came before my eyes for a reason. To show me that there are still choices that I need to make an implement and I know that after reading that article, the choices I make will be more informative and with caution. It really does make me angry that I can’t trust everything that I read…after putting into practice of reading all labels before I buy. Even the word organic is over used these days. If there is only one ingredient that is organic, then it is sold as an organic product!! It’s crazy and so frustrating. I have also come to the conclusion that I need to look more into the products that I buy, by researching the companies that sell organic products and their authenticity. Which will take time… I know that I still have a long way to go, but I will get there and I have decided that this is worth it. Not only for my own health and my family’s but mostly for my freedom and for the example that I am being for my children and the legacy that I am passing on by telling them the truth!
Thanks for reading my ramblings! It was through writing this, whilst my daughter was having a nice long nap today, that I was able to see things more clearly and be more determined. A lot like meditation and listening to my inner voice and not allowing my ego to beat me down. Thank you again and maybe this will be helpful to someone who comes across it today or someday :))))