Why Take 2, because I started typing this before and lost it all.
Day 24 of 28 day fast/cleanse
Day 10 of 14 day Pulse Adventure
Basically I just feel that I want to write in here and let out some things that are in my head at the moment and hopefully give it some room to breathe!
This morning, I was reading another person’s blog, not on here but on the WW community…and was reading one of her posts where she’s been feeling stuck as her weight has not shifted for 28 weeks! I could completely relate as I was stuck on the same weight for about 4 months, until I made recent changes. These changes have been drastic but that is how things work with me. If I don’t make drastic changes, things don’t change. If I don’t step out of my comfort zone, I feel miserable. And I know that there is so many more things that I need to do this with in my life, but at the moment, I figure that this is a baby step, if you will. Even though it all feels like a giant step!
What I shared with her is that maybe this is something that she needs to do also, something out of her comfort zone, to give her body the boost it needs to move the weight. But before doing that, it’s important to change the mindset. Before embarking on this whole adventure for the last 24 days, I had to get my mind in the right frame and grab on to that determination. Not just hold on to it, but pull it in, until it has become a part of me. This whole adventure has shown me just what I am capable of doing when I put my mind to it. And my focus also had to change!
If you read my past posts, you see the pattern of how obsessed I was with the number on the scale. Now I am not going to lie and say that it’s not the case anymore, the obsession is still there a little. But I have shifted the reason why I wanted to do this detox/fast/cleanse. I kept hearing all people that have lost weight saying it…watching Biggest Loser for years and other shows, blogs always say the same thing, but I never understood it as more than just words. Now I am living it! I am so focused and embracing the change for not just me, but for my family.
After watching Hungry for change…I saw it as a warning for not just me, but for my children. If I am going to make a change, it has to be NOW. And I need to be the example in order for them to accept that change.
So my focus has now become HEALTH!
I started this wanting to rid my body of all toxins that I have been purposely putting into it, such as alcohol(granted,this is my choice – moderation is my next challenge to undertake!), medications, junk food, and lots of others that I didn’t even know was affecting me, until I stood up and paid attention. Toiletry products that have aluminium, SLS, parabens and many others also had me standing up and paying more attention. Since I had my daughter and been home with more time to read and research, becoming more and more aware meant that changes had to be made. I could NOT plead ignorance anymore, no matter how much I wanted to!!! Also after my operation a few months ago, all the anesthesia, aspirin and antibiotics that was pumped into my body was quite astronomical and I could feel it all draining the life out of my body.
After 2 weeks of Lemon Detox, then 2 weeks of nothing but wholefoods diet(as per Pulse adventure), I have no shame in saying that with a combination of the detox/cleanse and the colon cleanse, my body is grateful! I have 4 more days of the Pulse adventure to go(not counting today).
I won’t lie, I’ve had some great days and some not so great days. For the past week, I have been craving chicken! But I haven’t given in! I know that there will come a time soon that I will be able to eat it, so that is what is partly helping me to stay on track. I know that giving in to it will only have me kicking myself. For Mother’s Day, I plan to eat Lunch with my family, so I will have a small break from this and extend it to the Monday. My plan is to eat mostly raw foods such as salads and possibly salmon I know that I just need to take it easy and listen to my body on the day.
(Front view – The difference in a year!)
Regarding my weight, this has been quite slow and steady since being on the pulse adventure I have exchanged 1.2kgs in 10 days. This must take into account that I have been doing harder workouts than the 2 previous weeks and weights as well So I am happy with the results, as in my mind & spirit, I feel fantastic. And my body is reflecting all that! Seeing so many changes in my clothes…that has just been astronomical. I fit in everything that I had hoped to since the beginning of this journey. I really needed a new clothes goal and I have one now – an egyptian looking white dress that I bought 2 years ago. It’s quite tight fitting at the moment, so the goal is to have it look flowy on me. No time frame. That’ll just be my goal – it may be around the same time that I reach within my healthy BMI of 22.45
(Side view – The difference in a year!)
And lastly, because I really need to get off here and have a shower lol – I had my last colon cleanse yesterday – as part of the 3 package. After this I am doing a 6 weekly maintenance, and perhaps longer if need be. In this last cleanse, I felt the full advantage of it with some more tips that were given to me to help clear out more “stuff”. I found that by focusing on something that I wanted to clear out of my life, the more I released. This time, it was fear for me and all I can say is that I had a very flat stomach after that session HAHAHA!! Don’t know that it dispelled it all, but it was certainly a start. Perhaps part of the next journey that I undertake
So I will leave with my affirmation for today:
“I am willing to let go! I am free to create that which is meaningful to me!”