Catching up over the last 2 weeks

I am planning my usual back to back Bootcamp & Zumba session tonight – usually I would have done something at home also to make up for not exercising yesterday but I decided to allocate this much needed time(whilst my little Angel sleeps) to post in here as well as set my new goals – I have a picture of where I am going in my head but it’s not enough – it will need to be written. Meanwhile, I feel like I need to reflect over my achievements so that I can stop beating myself up so much. I need to release all that I have in my head into this post – so that I can start fresh!

 

At the end of Week 15, I had an exchange of 400grams

At the end of Week 16, I had an exchange of 200grams

To date, total of 17.2kgs exchanged

Measurements have also been kind:

(3.5) cms from my hips (must be all that Zumba shaking .. hehe)

(1.0)cm from my bust

(0.5)cm from my arms

The rest remaining the same!

 

All in all, when I think over the two weeks, it’s a miracle that I exchanged anything at all!

It’s been a bit of a downer 2 weeks for me – even though I have kept working my butt off with exercising – my eating habits have been slipping and it seems that this is reflecting in my exchanges being so small.  The downer has mostly come from the fact that I had set myself two goals for the last 6 weeks that I didn’t meet. Well I got close to my first one and eventually met it but the last goal I am still dancing around. Seems to be a pattern that after every 5kgs exchanged…I hover – especially when I am SO close to moving forward into the next decade!

On the bright side of things, I did have a great experience at the course that I went to 2 weeks ago which helped me to get a better perspective on things. This course involved goal setting and reprogramming my thinking. But like all things, if you are not putting it into practice then it’s just more paper and another folder to add to my shelf.

I had it in my mind to tackle all this by the time I returned from the 4-day course/seminar but it seemed like I had already given in to some kind of self-sabotage on the way. Last weekend, I went to a concert with my brother & brother in law & hubby with respective partners and although I did my best to plan my eating(which I still believe that if I didn’t, it could have been so much worse) – but I had a few drinks(not really sure how many .. too many to mention I’d say)and that tends to inhibit the healthy thoughts. But I have to say, that even through all that – my drinking was so much less than I have done in the past. Then on Saturday night, I had a Hen’s night to go to with my sister – and there I downed another 3.5 champagnes but over the course of 6 hours. The food choices again were not great so this could all catch up with me this week if I don’t get on to it soon. Let me put it this way….There were a lot of junk food choices. I did over indulge and it was not unconscious…it was all done very consciously…so for anything that scale reveals to me this week, I will take full responsibility(Thanks to SoulGoddess for reminding us all of this through her experience). Either that or have no WI week!

The other thing that has been getting me down in the last 2 weeks, is my scales. I have two that I weigh myself on – a digital & an analog one. Most of the time, they are in complete sync but the last 2 weeks, they haven’t been so much. I am having step on and off like I was doing with the analog one a few months back, to get some kind of a reading. I know that I should look into getting a new one but I am not able to fit this into my budget at the moment, so will just need to deal with the scales issues. Otherwise, I could give em up all together! lol There’s also been the fact that I have become obsessed with weighing myself everyday again. I was so good for so long and only weighing myself on the day that I have allocated and sometimes on Mondays – just to know what I am dealing with until WI day. But lately, I have been catching myself doing it everyday – when I wake up, after breakfast , in the afternoon. OMG…it’s become an obsession. It’s no wonder I am not able to move along any faster no matter what I do!

Sometimes, I have to admit that I feel like throwing those scales. Because I could feel so great in my body and really feeling the changes happening – expecting that the scale will reflect the same – and then down goes my mood once I see the minuscule result on the scale. I know that I need to account for muscle and water retention and that time of the month etc…but you all know that it’s a really challenging thing to accept when  you’re going through it yourself. It’s always so easy to give people advice and snap them out of it and I love that I can do that – I just wish that it always works on me. Thankfully, there are so many amazing ladies on the WW community that help me to feel better very regularly and it is reciprocated! You know who you are Ladies.x

 

 

So What I have I learnt from my last 2 weeks experience?

So much! Mostly that it is very important for me to write down my goals and in the way that I have been promoting on the 6-weekly SMART goals but I have some extra steps that I will share with you all once I have done my own. Having these written goals and little milestones to reach for each week is also important. I am realising more and more how important it is to not deprive myself…So far I have been saving my 49points for the w/end but I have decided to start using some of these for during the week as well, so that I can indulge in a small treat here and there…because by the w/end, it seems like I am kinda heading for a bit of a binge and sometimes it doesn’t stop. Last weekend’s indulgences are taking while to wean from but I know that I will get there!

 

 

 

Have I been able to find things that I am grateful for in the last 2 weeks?

Oh gosh, yes! So much! A lot of it not WW related but I will share some anyway;

  • Resting my body and still listening to my body
  • Seeing myself in situations that I have in the past behaved poorly and this time being able to come from a wiser and more mature stance
  • Being grateful for those past poor behaviours because if it wasn’t experienced, then I wouldn’t be able to now recognise how much better I can be
  • WW community 
  • My exercise buddies :)
  • Bootcamp & Zumba on Tuesday nights
  • Meeting new people & making new friends
  • Getting closer to old ones
  • Seeing myself through other people’s eyes
  • For the small exchanges

 

“Only YOU can make yourself happy – No one has any control over anyone else’s happiness!”

~Matt James

 

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Successfully leaping into Week 15

I am happy to report this week’s exchange of one(1) kg!

It hasn’t been an easy week, I can tell ya that much but I got there….Well halfway there.

As per my goal on my challenge “6 weekly SMART goals” – I have yet another 1.4kgs to go! Although there are only 3 FULL days left before Sunday(which is my niece’s Deb).

So what am I gonna do about it?

Well, just keep doing what I have been doing for the last 3 days(which from my sneak peeks at the scales, was when the change happened) – which is exercise(although today I have been kind and rewarded my body with a nice long 65 mins of yoga)and following a Kick Start plan that I turn to when I need results or wish to detox my body – this consists of mostly soups, vegies, fruits & nuts for 7 days. Works everytime, when I have the patience to do the big cook up :)

Do I think this maybe a little ambitious?

Yes, maybe but I am sure willing to give it a go! I will be extremely happy even with another minimum of 500g as that would actually put me in the ball park figure that I was aiming for! So time will tell and the weekend is coming up, so that will be the true test for me.

I did try on the purple dress that I plan to wear to this Deb on Sunday and was quite happy with how I looked and felt and in it last week..So this week will be even better :) I also tried on a summer dress that my sister gave me when I was 5 months pregnant – it’s a size 14. Have been trying it on every month or so and I am happy to report that it now fits me beautifully. I would wear it out in public now if I could..lol but it’s too cold, so by the time Spring comes…hmmm may have to get it taken in…hehe. My Miller’s jeans also are fitting a whole lot better. I wore them to cousin’s house on the weekend and could sit in them without opening the buttons and could also drink & eat in them, without having to undo the buttons. Now that’s PROGRESS!!! :)

I am still contemplating putting progress photos up. Was planning to do it last week but I chickened out..mainly because of the fact that the pics end up showing up in Google pics and I don’t feel too good about that fact. Still undecided on that one and who knows, I  will probably change my mind – maybe once I hit the halfway mark.

So going back to my victory so far….

To date, I have exchanged 16.6kgs since 10th of Jan 2011(24weeks) and 10.2kgs since I joined WW on the 3rd of March 2011(15 weeks)

As of today, I have 3.4kgs to exchange until I am halfway to my goal :)

Today was also my 2 weekly measurement day and I am happy to report:

-1.5cms from my hips

-3cms from my bust

-2cms from my thighs

And the rest stayed the same :)

My activity points for the week = 89

Did I do anything differently from last week?

Well first and foremost, my attitude and morale were a lot better! So that in itself has given me the motivation to stick to my all eating & exercise plan. And funny enough, in the last week,  I actually had two rest days – one last Thursday because I was just feeling low and my body really felt like I needed it and the other on Monday was the final release of all the moods and hormones built up from last week! So, I am just realising this myself as I am writing this – only  5 days of exercise and I still got great results! And that is mainly from the fact that I have been listening to my body and only pushing myself when I am feeling like I am up to it and giving my body a rest when it’s telling me to.

Definitely that one day of Bootcamp & Zumba really helps give my body & my metabolism that boost that it needs. I know from past experience that in order for me to see any kind of decent exchange, I need to have challenged my body somewhere along the way(and ensuring to nurture it in between too). Therefore I am glad that I have added this into my exercise regime and apart from that – it gets me out of the house and away from the kids’ dramas for a while :) It feels awesome afterwards, that’s for sure.

Now I have just been reading my last entry about deprivation…and perhaps people who read this(if anyone does..lol) will think that I have contradicted myself by adopting the Kick Start plan this week….So I want to stress that I only do this one week at a time and only when it feels like my body needs the detoxing after having too many processed foods or chocolates or whatever else I needed to fulfill my monthly cravings. It actually feels quite refreshing. I do slowly go back to normal foods, like breads, rice, pastas, meats, etc… after the 7 days(it’s all in built in the plan)….and any treats that I feel like….all in MODERATION!

Little one is stirring in her cot, so I best finish this off with my gratitude list for the week:

  • Listening to my body
  • Caring and nurturing my body
  • Growing to accept and love my body more and more EVERYDAY
  • Exercising to the voice of my body
  • The supportive essence of the WW community
  • The massive progress I am making to fit into my old clothes again
  • Blogging
  • Keeping up with weekly rewards
  • Finding my mojo again

Be like the turtle – at ease in your own shell. ~ Bill Copeland

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Caring for your Body!

Yet another blog entry I have been wanting to write for a while now…and I guess I held back from it a little since I was going through my monthly downer in the last week.

This is part of a monthly checklist that I had shared on a group I had on yahoo for a long time but I have tweaked it a little to include more recent information.

PHYSICAL  CHECK LIST!

Are you nurturing your body on a regular basis? Because the physical is absorbing the energies of change of the world around you, it’s not about you. It’s not yours. But the body takes it in. It stores it until you, as the Master of your own temple, say “I don’t need that anymore.”

  • Release it through breathing. Releasing it through yoga, tai-chi or any other light, non-abusive exercise. Make this part of your weekly exercise regime at least once to twice a week.  Good, healthy, energy movement and flow that gets you breathing. Drinking liquids, especially important right now for your body. It helps to flush out so many of those energies. In a way you’re like a magnet. You pull, bring in these energies and then they go resident in your body. But they don’t need to be.

So the breathing and nurturing of your body. What is nurturing? Getting a massage. That’s good. It’s not just about the massage, it’s about doing something for yourself.

  • Eat what you truly like! Stop worrying about overindulging or any other of those strange things that you’ve had before. Your body knows how to clear itself if you let it. So nurture your body. Feed it something that you like and that it likes.
  • Being in the water with your body, in a bath or ocean or a lake – a body of water – particularly if you can add the salt or if the salt is already there. Natural salt helps to detoxify. These are not your toxins, so don’t own them. Don’t keep them. Don’t feed them. You’re just picking them up from the world around you and it’s going to intensify because of all of the changes on Earth. So, make sure in your checklist, are you nurturing your physical body? Love your body. Nurture it. Accept it for exactly what it is.
  • Drink PLENTY of water(at least 8 glasses a day)
  • Eat lots of proteins and many small meals throughout the day(this would cease the need to binge)
  • Have plenty of rest  – be sure to give yourself a regular bed time(I admit that I don’t practice this as often as I should!)
  • Put yourself first and know that they universe will follow your lead.
  • Remember your precious feet..they often get neglected. Soak them in foot spa at least once a week to help de-stress them and as form of gratitude to them for sustaining the vigorous workouts and running around that your week may have entailed(especially when you are a mother!)
  • Be out in the sun or lie on the ground. Heaven & earth are great conduits for balancing, healing & rejuvenating
  • After each shower, especially after a workout – give your body love by moisturising every inch of your body, thanking your body for being such a wonderful home for your soul and your mind. Affirming your appreciation for its magnificence as you nurture your body with your moisturiser.

The following Louise Hay affirmations are great to use for the above – you can do them all or pick one which you resonate with the most that day:

“I am in tune with my body.”

“My body is always working towards optimum health!”

“I accept my uniqueness. I rejoice in my uniqueness. I am special & wonderful. I love and approve of myself!”

“I maintain my healthy perfect weight. My mind & body are balanced and are in tune. I activate and maitain my perfect weight easily & effortlessly.”

“I take loving care of you(talking to your body)by eating & drinking healthy food & beverages. Thank you for responding to the love and nurture I offer you everyday.”

  • Meditate as often as possible! (Something that I need to re-introduce into my routine )

There is a misconception that meditation is only when you are sitting down with your legs crossed, up on a mountain or a secluded area, transcending yourself in another place.

Many people prefer to meditate while moving around. When meditating like this it is important to ensure that the physical activities are an expression of inner attentiveness, not a distraction from whatever we are experiencing. The activity is done slowly and attentively.

Examples include walking, swimming, and doing something repetitive that is not distracting (washing dishes, digging in the garden, sweeping…).The activity is not the purpose – it is a means of focussing and holding attention on inner processes. 

Meditating every day at around the same time can help you develop a regular habit and make it easier and quicker to slip into deeply meditative states.

There are different types of meditation:

  • Concentrating on the breath – consciously noticing the movement of air in and out of your nostrils, or counting the breath in various ways.
  • Mindfulness – cultivating awareness of inner experiences (bodily sensations, feelings, thoughts, memories…) and simply observing them.
  • Emptying the mind – allowing the mind to clear and ‘float’, gently pushing aside any stray thoughts, or allowing thoughts to float in and out of awareness.
  • Looking at an object – focusing your attention, but not necessarily your thoughts, on the shape, sound and texture of an object such as a tree, a candle flame, or spiritually significant painting or ‘diagram’.
  • Movement – using a physical technique like yoga, Qi Gong or Tai Chi to still the mind by coordinating the breath and the body with gentle movement.
  • Using a mantra – repeating a word or phrase over and over, either aloud or silently, perhaps timed with the breath, to focus the attention and release different energies that benefit our bodies and minds.

(Resource:http://www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au)

No matter what type of physical exercise you do, you can use creative visualization and affirmations to help you get maximum benefit and enjoyment from it.

For example if you like to run, picture yourself running very swiftly, smoothly, and tirelessly. If you dance or do yoga, put your awareness in your body, in your muscles, picture them relaxing and strengthening, see yourself becoming more and more limber and flexible.

Use creative visualization to improve your abilities in your favorite sport, imagine yourself becoming more and more accomplished until you are truly excelling.

Affirm: I love exercising my body. I am strong, limber, and physically fit.

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Steady pacing into Week 14

Today’s WI revealed a 100g exchange.

Am I disappointed?

I would be lying to say that I am not.

I actually couldn’t remember exactly how much I weighed and in my mind thought that I had exchanged 800g and I was disappointed to see that the difference was only 100g…

BUT

…considering my weekend of indulgences, my TOM bloating and  TOM cravings that just had to be fulfilled – I think that I did pretty well :)

Sure this probably means that I MAY not be at the exchange I have set my goal at for my niece’s deb next week BUT HEY…I am gonna keep at it. I know that this is only temporary…I KNOW that I can get back on track!

What was different for me this week?

Well, as I mentioned above – all the TOM symptoms. My sister come over for fish & chips on Friday night(which don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed). Saturday we went to the Palace cinemas @ Como and enjoyed a nice juicy porterhouse steak beforehand(something that I NEVER order but since being told that I have to eat a lot more red meat, I am pushing myself to have more of these). In the cinema, we shared an almond cake and some maltesers. On Sunday, I had my cousin’s wedding in Altona. It was only nibblies. I had lunch before  hand which was only soup and I was careful with what I ate there..keeping in the back of my mind the points that I can have. But then I don’t know, something switched in my brain on Sunday night and Monday….and it’s a switch that I haven’t had for a while or have been able to replace with positive thoughts in the last 12 weeks. I believe that I have mentioned before that the ONLY time that I crave chocolate is when TOM is lurking..I had these beautiful little truffles in a box that my youngest son had given me for Mother’s Day. They had been sitting there for 3 weeks, only touched every now and then and shared with others in the house. But Sunday night and Monday – I went crazy..and just ate the whole thing…I think that there was about 10 altogether. I did give one to my eldest son out of that.lol. So yes,  I guess that you would call that a binge fest!

Although throughout ALL OF THAT…I worked out EVERYDAY! Not always doing what I would like to be doing or had planned on my exercise plan because my daughter’s sleep was a little all over the place this week with the fact that she’s had a cold. So instead of doing my usual TaeBo this week(the last time I did see Billy was Sunday before the wedding),  I have been walking to pick up boys from school and when they are home and able to entertain the little one for me, I would jump on the Wii JD2 for 40 mins. So all in all, my activity points have been still pretty good. I earnt 70 activity points for the week but I did eat into it as well as my allowance points this week. So that would be the major difference. Usually I use my allowance points during the weekend but leave my activity points completely alone. Also, my food tracking plans were also out of whack as I hadn’t done a week’s shopping. Goes to show how important it is to PLAN! PLAN! PLAN! That’s what helped me to exchange such a massive amount last week.

Hey, it’s all a learning. Now I know that by doing the above things, my body is surely to slow down…and especially at this time.

Also, what I have learnt this week and I am happy with this time around in my health exchange journey, is that I am allowing myself to have those few treats when my body is craving for it(maybe not my body, more my mind lol). I was looking at this photo of me at a friend’s wedding almost 3 years ago and remembered the torture that I put my body through in order to get those results. My state of mind was also not the best at that time having lost my parents a couple of years before. I would really deprive myself so much of everything and then have massive binges..and when those binges felt like they were out of control, I would workout like MAD! Did it work? Yeah sure it did…but to my detriment!

Everything in moderation. Sometimes, you hear things or people say things or read about how things should be done and you’re hearing it but you’re not really listening. Because,  I thought the rules of the body didn’t apply to me. That I could do anything to it and it will just respond. Of course it does respond, but the more negative thoughts & treatments you put your body through, the more negatively it will respond too. Sometimes, not straight away…just with time you see the damage that you created by not listening to your body and treating it as the temple that it is.

So I believe treats are important. Maybe even in the last 12 weeks, I was not treating myself enough…perhaps that deprivation mentality was still present and wanting to take over! But more and more, I am able to step out of myself and see what I am doing that is not heading towards a healthier me! Sure, I have up and down days….LOTS of them. But the moment I can change that thinking and take action to make that difference, I seize it and keep moving!

To finish off, what I am grateful for this week:

  • My realisations
  • My lessons
  • My cravings(as without them, I wouldn’t have seen first hand how bingeing can really affect me!)
  • Ensuring that I exercised EVERYDAY – finding alternatives when I couldn’t do what I planned :)
  • Rewarding myself for last week’s massive exchange(which was 3 new tops & a pair of shoes – the shoes were a bargain that I just couldn’t pass up during some Bridge rd shopping)
  • My daughter’s interrupted sleep patterns – it got me out on walks in beautiful Melbourne’s sunshine that we’ve been blessed with this week
  • Finding inspiration in my time of need in Oprah
  • My supportive WW friends…if I don’t tell you enough…THANK YOU!!
  • This journey, even with its ups and downs…it’s teaching me so much about myself, developing my strengths and recognising my weaknesses
  • Being able to blog again!

I will sign off this entry with this amazing quote from Oprah’s last show – so MUCH of what she said touched my heart and my soul but THIS one was the MOST powerful:

‎”There is a difference between THINKING you deserve to be happy & KNOWING that you are worthy of happiness!” ~Oprah


 

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The positive influences of Oprah

When the farewell shows for Oprah was on TV, I didn’t have the opportunity to watch it so I downloaded the very last show a couple of days ago and watched it yesterday…and I really feel like I need to blog about what I got out of the experience.

Firstly, I have to admit that until more recently, I never really watched Oprah. I always saw it as a tiresome reality TV show in the same realm as the likes of Jerry Springer. Probably when I did catch it every now and then many years ago, that’s how it actually was. So I just basically stayed away from watching it unless there was someone really interesting on it or I was intrigued by the story whilst switching channels. I personally, never understood why people put her on such a pedestal and believed her to be almost like a “God”.

But since the shows that she did in Australia, I found myself switching her on in the afternoon whilst feeding my daughter. I found myself developing this massive respect for what she does and the energy that she emanates to the world. She really is a shining example and really has done her job with the utmost passion and commitment in the last 25 years.

The final show didn’t have any guests, only Oprah, basically talking about her learnings and sharing this with her viewers as well as continuously expressing her gratitude for the support she has received for her show over the years. It was truly touching and inspiring.

It helped me to finally have an answer for something that I have been searching for, for a long time. I always wondered what my purpose on earth was? What was I sent here to do? What is my calling? I always believed that it HAD to be something big. But watching Oprah today, I heard her say:

“Your platform, stage, talk show is where you are showing people exactly who you are.”

Connect, embrace, liberate & love somebody. Begin with one and spread to two and keep spreading.”

Those two quotes just there were so powerful to me because I began to think that perhaps my platform is already in motion. At home, I run my own class for my kids. I am their ultimate teacher until such a time that they start searching for it in others for the things I can’t teach them. My other platforms are my blogs and my spiritual/inspirational groups where I share quotes and inspiring words  that have inspired me with others. It’s where I feel  I can open myself up and allow some of my humility to come through which can in turn help someone else along the way.

Anther quote she said:

“Start embracing the life that is calling you and use your life  to serve the world!”

Again, such a stab in the heart these word when I heard them come out of her mouth. It was as if she was speaking directly to me. Since last year, I completed a Massage & Aromatherapy  course which since having my daughter, has been left to the wayside due to time restrictions. Although, I am feeling such a strong pull to get this going but at the same time, there is so much fear involved. Start embracing life, that’s what I need to apply so that I can better serve the world. The whole idea of taking these courses was to eventually start practising them at home. Having a baby definitely delayed that but there’s no reason why plans for it should not happen. I feel like this is my other platform to serve the world, waiting for me to step up and allow.

When I went to see my Naturopath a few weeks ago, she told me that I should really do something with what I have learnt and put into practice. She said that you will notice that the experience is not only about giving but also about receiving . She is also a remedial massage therapist. She also said that she sees that I would be great at it…the thing is, I do see that too but at the same time, I am finding myself allowing the fears take over all my thoughts and pushing the idea further and further away. There are many fears involved, one of success, one of failure, one of lack of knowledge, one of not being good at it,etc…. But then I heard this quote from  Oprah’s show:

“We ofen block our own blessings because we don’t feel good enough, or smart enough or pretty enough or WORTHY enough. You are worthy because you are BORN & because you are HERE NOW!”

Today, I watched the farewell spectacular surprise shows. What an amazing end to this part of her humanitarian dedication. To see how much she has helped to inspire others…the thing is that I know that Oprah doesn’t see that SHE has done it. Only that she has been the messenger for all those people who needed to hear the message in order to change their lives. It’s so easy for us to put a person on pedestal and feel that we would be lost without this person because we feel that they have helped us so much. But in the end, Oprah is a representation, a reflection of what we are ALL capable of. She is an example of what we can be in our own lives. It doesn’t need to be in the form of being a talk show host or having our own network but whatever purpose it is that we have a calling.

Deciding and realising in order to step into our power can be the easiest thing . But it’s the trials, tribulations and tests of time that truly help us to grow and shine as the enlightened, empowered souls that we truly are…every single one of us..no exceptions!

Thank you for allowing me to share this with you.x

“Your life is speaking to you. What is it saying?” ~Oprah

 

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The positive influences of Oprah

When the farewell shows for Oprah was on TV, I didn’t have the opportunity to watch it so I downloaded the very last show a couple of days ago and watched it yesterday…and I really feel like I need to blog about what I got out of the experience. It’s not directly to do with this journey, but in some higher aspects, it is!

Firstly, I have to admit that until more recently, I never really watched Oprah. I always saw it as a tiresome reality TV show in the same realm as the likes of Jerry Springer. Probably when I did catch it every now and then many years ago, that’s how it actually was. So I just basically stayed away from watching it unless there was someone really interesting on it or I was intrigued by the story whilst switching channels. I personally, never understood why people put her on such a pedestal and believed her to be almost like a “God”.

But since the shows that she did in Australia, I found myself switching her on in the afternoon whilst feeding my daughter. I found myself developing this massive respect for what she does and the energy that she emanates to the world. She really is a shining example and really has done her job with the utmost passion and commitment in the last 25 years.

The final show didn’t have any guests, only Oprah, basically talking about her learnings and sharing this with her viewers as well as continuously expressing her gratitude for the support she has received for her show over the years. It was truly touching and inspiring.

It helped me to finally have an answer for something that I have been searching for, for a long time. I always wondered what my purpose on earth was? What was I sent here to do? What is my calling? I always believed that it HAD to be something big. But watching Oprah today, I heard her say:

“Your platform, stage, talk show is where you are showing people exactly who you are.”

Connect, embrace, liberate & love somebody. Begin with one and spread to two and keep spreading.”

Those two quotes just there were so powerful to me because I began to think that perhaps my platform is already in motion. At home, I run my own class for my kids. I am their ultimate teacher until such a time that they start searching for it in others for the things I can’t teach them. My other platforms are my blogs and my spiritual/inspirational groups where I share quotes and inspiring words  that have inspired me with others. It’s where I feel  I can open myself up and allow some of my humility to come through which can in turn help someone else along the way.

Anther quote she said:

“Start embracing the life that is calling you and use your life  to serve the world!”

Again, such a stab in the heart these word when I heard them come out of her mouth. It was as if she was speaking directly to me. Since last year, I completed a Massage & Aromatherapy  course which since having my daughter, has been left to the wayside due to time restrictions. Although, I am feeling such a strong pull to get this going but at the same time, there is so much fear involved. Start embracing life, that’s what I need to apply so that I can better serve the world. The whole idea of taking these courses was to eventually start practising them at home. Having a baby definitely delayed that but there’s no reason why plans for it should not happen. I feel like this is my other platform to serve the world, waiting for me to step up and allow.

When I went to see my Naturopath a few weeks ago, she told me that I should really do something with what I have learnt and put into practice. She said that you will notice that the experience is not only about giving but also about receiving . She is also a remedial massage therapist. She also said that she sees that I would be great at it…the thing is, I do see that too but at the same time, I am finding myself allowing the fears take over all my thoughts and pushing the idea further and further away. There are many fears involved, one of success, one of failure, one of lack of knowledge, one of not being good at it,etc…. But then I heard this quote from  Oprah’s show:

“We ofen block our own blessings because we don’t feel good enough, or smart enough or pretty enough or WORTHY enough. You are worthy because you are BORN & because you are HERE NOW!”

Today, I watched the farewell spectacular surprise shows. What an amazing end to this part of her humanitarian dedication. To see how much she has helped to inspire others…the thing is that I know that Oprah doesn’t see that SHE has done it. Only that she has been the messenger for all those people who needed to hear the message in order to change their lives. It’s so easy for us to put a person on pedestal and feel that we would be lost without this person because we feel that they have helped us so much. But in the end, Oprah is a representation, a reflection of what we are ALL capable of. She is an example of what we can be in our own lives. It doesn’t need to be in the form of being a talk show host or having our own network but whatever purpose it is that we have a calling.

Deciding and realising in order to step into our power can be the easiest thing . But it’s the trials, tribulations and tests of time that truly help us to grow and shine as the enlightened, empowered souls that we truly are…every single one of us..no exceptions!

Thank you for allowing me to share this with you.x

“Your life is speaking to you. What is it saying?” ~Oprah

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